June 30th, 2026 - Stared at my ceiling for a few hours yay
Almost a week into summer break..I'm so bored whehsdj. I kinda feel like that one Shinji pic (below lmao). It's tough to go outside when I don't really have anyone to see irl. It's kinda terrifying to go out on my own but I'm slowly getting better TwT
Even scrolling has become kinda "meh" if that makes any sense. . I'm genuinely so bored eeuuegh what else do people do during the summer? I've spent some time with my hobbies and stuff but there's genuinely so much time to fill. Obviously it's not the worst thing in the world, but man it's killing me a bit. (at least I don't have to worry about school :'3)
At least I'm finally getting more sleep. Napping has become the most common thing I've been doing since the break started. Tell me why after getting like 8-9 hours PLUS like my 2 hour naps still lead to me feeling so exhausted. Really hoping I'll start to gain some energy over the next few days.


June 24th, 2026 - FREEDOM
I'M FINALLY DONE WITH MY EXAMS!! After hours and hours of studying, tears, contemplating why I made the choices I have, and tiny moments where studying was actually kinda fun.. I'M DONE!! I was literally jumping for joy when I got home. I can't wait to work on this website even more and create some more drawings!! (which I've been procrastinating on for the last few months..).
Realistically, I'll probably spend a lot of time in bed binging shows or doomscrolling..but maybe I'll go outside solo every now and then. If anyone ever bothers to read this, you'll know I don't really have anyone I'm close to at school. With my luck, somehow all of the people I DID form friendships or decent connections with moved. ALL OF THEM. HOW. WHAT ARE THE CHANCES.
Anyway, I'm trying to look on the bright side of things. Sure, I'm definitely gonna be bored but I'm not completely alone. I still have my wife (/hj) to call and talk to during the summer!! And I get to stay home a lot more yayy!! With 0 academic pressure!! I can't wait to sleep too omg.. For some reason I wanna try baking again? I'm really excited about the summer break if you can't tell. I really gotta enjoy the next two months ahaj


June 18th, 2026 - Study Break
I've been studying for my exams for about a week now. And today was technically the 'last day' before exams.
Honestly, studying is not that bad? I mean don't get me wrong it's a lot of content..but I'm sort of enjoying it!! Although I realized once I do get focused I can't stop until I'm fully exhausted. Repeat that for about a week and today, I genuinely don't wanna do anything. I'm telling myself it's okay, but my brain doesn't feel like it so yeah I'm writing to feel a bit productive and uhh also go through some concepts in my head.
I'm also staring at the giant diagram of a bunch of organ systems I helped make for a group project a few months ago. There's so much stuff in biology it kinda makes me feel like I'm gonna go insane.
I wish I could just be done with school instead of having to do exams for 4 days sighh. I keep telling myself I'll be fine considering everything else in the past but man. I can't help but feel like I'm doomed at the start of every test. I KNOW I can't be the only one that feels their stomach drop and feel their heart beat every time they get a test back. But, for some reason I feel like I'm feeling way more than I'm supposed to if that makes sense. Like it feels like I'm about to receive news that would ruin my entire month. Then almost every time, I'm fine. Gotta find some way to get rid of that feeling hahahj.
I should get ready to go to bed. I'll come back here when exams end. :')


June 5th, 2026 - Exhaustion will not stop my need to yap a bit
It's Friday, and I am so exhausted. Send help. I have so much stuff to dooo and exams are coming up.. pretty tempted to just lie down and do nothing for the weekend!! I've done a TON of stuff this week. I feel like it hasn't been the weekend in like 2 weeks so maybe I deserve a break right? Idk. It feels like I'm not doing enough stuff. I mean there's people out here who are doing genuinely good things in their free time and I'm kinda just here. Mehhhh who caress..
Anyways I got to rewatch Barbie and The 12 Dancing Princesses recently! I haven't seen the movie in years and honestly didn't expect to cry. Tbh nostalgia is gonna be the end of me one day..(I say this while planning to rewatch the other ones because I LOVE the old Barbie movies!! I don't care if I end up sobbing!!). Man now that I think about it, I kinda wish I could go back in time and warn 10 year old me about everything that would happen. Or maybe it would be better to keep past me in the dark.. Idk it just sounds kinda fun to see me in the past. I guess future me would eventually read this again right? That's kinda like looking at me in the past surelyy.. (I'm so sorry if there's anyone else out here).
Okay. I'm gonna go take a super long nap and hope it lasts for a couple years.


May 31st, 2026 - Summer arrives again
It's somehow the end of May? Idk I feel like I've been on autopilot all month so time kinda just passed by. Really fast. This means that June and the summer are about to really start.
I wish it was summer break already..but I gotta push through the last month of school. I should be fine, I mean I'm actually alright at school. My math mark has been amazing this semester (yeah I'm gonna flex my 97 from the midterm..I'm doing great so far c: ). My art mark is currently 100!!! Although I think my last assignment is gonna bring it down.. I didn't put in as much effort as I should've but it's fine. Plus, for a biology course above my grade level, I'm doing pretty good there too! (a 92 is kinda insane for me I know it's not the same for other people but whatever) I just really have to focus this month on studying haha I'm totally gonna die trying.. :')
I know most people are excited for the summer but honestly I dread it. Every time I go outside I feel like I'm being boiled alive and omg I'm sorry but I am NOT a fan of bugs. Bugs in general are pretty cool and stuff, but I'd like to see them from a distance whdgdfjk
It's not like I have anything to do during the summer break either. My social skills are awful and I haven't exactly made any strong friendships this year so that I could have something to do this summer with someone. I mean wtf do I do when the one friend I made this year moves.
Maybe I could go out and do things solo. It sounds terrifying. But I've done it before so I should be okay. Either way, I'm probably staying indoors most of the summer unless I can figure out something hahahaj (I'm so cooked)


May 30, 2026 - Idk what to tittle this
Okay I've started my 'diary' I don't imagine there's many people who'll actually read this wefhgh so I can kinda scream into the void here.
Don't think I'd get too personal, it just seems nice to write about some of my thoughts.